Autumn is here and that means that 'tis the time of the year again I can experiment with rich fabrics such as jacquard, velvet and for this day- my personal choice- brocade. I always found richly decorative shuttle-woven fabrics laced with metallic gold absolutely elegant and glamorous and if anything, it spells one thing: royalty. Okay, so I will never be royal... even if some of my readers and followers call me Queen but I sure as hell can dress as one and that was exactly what I did when I chose this ensemble for a very important lunch where I was to present achievements of our foundation and orient my two sisters who are based abroad all about it. When I wore this outfit, I felt quite pleased with myself... Although when my sisters and staff saw me, they had one name in mind: Blair Waldorf. The irony of it all.
Black Chiffon Top with Sequined Collar: Top Picks Clothing
Black and Gold Embroidered Brocade Skirt with Tulle: Kirin Kirin
Black Patent Mary Jane Shoes: Zara
Gold 2.55 Bag: Chanel
I say it is ironic and you might wonder why. Well, of the outfit and the character it alludes to is far from how I live my life right now. I am past all the drama, the scheming, the conniving, the intrigues and the ridiculous... which from where I stand seem to be such a thing of the distant past. I've decided to give up going out and partying (which I used to do on a regular basis) because I find that there are more important things I could be doing with all that time. At some point, I think the fine social scene got kind of old for me and I could feel that it was all just so very repetitious and monotonous. It started to get tedious. I mean, it's fine...once in a while...but it's not a lifestyle I would want to have. There is just so much more to life than enjoying and letting loose...at some point, you have to realize you have obligations which actually involve more than just having fun. It took me a lot to get here but now looking back, it was actually all about making one choice and not looking back and now I am moving forward... on to better, brighter and more important things. I know all facets of the foundation and can talk about it in my sleep since I am deeply involved and immersed in it. As a result, I was far from nervous during the presentation because I knew what I was talking about and more so, I've been living it the past years. To be frank, I never quite felt "grounded" in my life until I decided to be active in this endeavor. Years and years of boyfriends, relationships and dramatic friendships that have come and gone never quite satisfied me and now, after all that time of all of that baggage, I am finally at ease with myself... I know I am where I belong and I know I am doing what I am supposed to. It is such a wonderful feeling to realize that you are where you belong, where you always wanted to be and that you've found your way to that place. It's miraculous how things like that happen.
Photos by: Celyn Jaravata