Aug 23, 2012

Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds

 There's only two types of people in the world
The ones that entertain and the ones that observe
Well baby, I'm a put-on-a-show kind of girl
Don't like the backseat, got to be first

Dress: Topshop | Shoes: DAS | Bag:  Frou Frou 

Subtlety was not exactly what I was going for when I bought and wore this dress. Upon seeing it, I was instantly reminded of a shiny disco ball and of course my shiny disco ball sequined New Year's Eve circa 2010 dress... Click HERE (Boom, boom, boom, even brighter than the moon) to see the look. This time around, I worked the cap sleeved sequin dress in a less vampy tone, Notice, how instead of wearing it with red pumps accents, I chose a pastel blue hue which, because of shape of the shoes transformed me into an intergalactic space cadet... complete with the smokey eyes and high and mighty ponytail. I chose this look as I wanted to go "ALL OUT" for Cirque du Soleil: Saltimbanco which I watched with my family over the weekend and given that I am who I am, I could not resist or pass up on a chance for dressing up to the nines. 

I shimmered the entire day and night and was a natural mirror/reflector but this was such a fun dress to wear I have nothing to complain about...I kind of looked like quite the shiny glittering diamond which was fitting for this post...

“I believe you can have whatever you really want in this life, in one form or another, sooner or later. All you have to do is take care of your health and be lucky enough to live for a while. But you can't have it all at once and you can't have it forever. No life has the room for everything in it, not on the same day.

Doing your own thing'' is a generous act. I never thought that living your life how you want to live it would cause such frenzy and fascination from so much people. For quite a time I thought that voicing out my opinions and sharing tidbits of my ever so chaotic life (besides, really, whose isn't?) to people in this blog would be a good thing since 1) I would learn a lot from other people who have been or are going through something similar and 2) People would likewise learn from me.  I have done that even before I started my own blog on Chictopia and what a ride it has been.

Man, being naturally predisposed to be evil, is a being like no other. I have seen quite a few human beings who prowl about the world with the only mission to destroy other people's lives. I have come across a handful of such people from the day I was born. But this has got to stop. In retrospect, I should have clarified it from the very start---
Many times I have spoken about drama, I have complained about my life having too much of it and many times I have rejoiced finally it has become drama-free. It's a roller coaster ride and I am sure people go through the same cycle which makes me relate-able in some aspect. However as I write this entry and contemplate why I do keep a blog to chronicle my lifestyle and fashion choices in the first place—it probably is that I have to admit my life is so full of drama and the reason that I have suffered so much implications for writing about it is that people are,as a matter of fact, interested in drama. I have come to the conclusion that if you are reading this blog or this blog entry it probably is because:

(1) You truly are interested in my life and do care for me and need a constant update on my thoughts and my feelings but cannot seem to be in constant communication with me due to geographical limitations.

(2) You want to know about the latest fashion trends, news or whatever it is I am wearing for the day. For reasons that you cannot fathom, I feel good whenever I do post such because I do care that people know what I like and what I don't. It is not about being shallow or superficial but I do have to say keeping a blog is somehow a  form of self-gratification. Granted that when I started, I didn't really expect anyone to care about my opinion... I just wanted an outlet and I guessed letting it out in cyberspace was a great release.

(3) You read my blog because you loathe me in the purest and most unspeakable form and that every post is subject to misinterpretation, for your part. For these people who view my page to find new reasons to hate me and talk about me, the drama they want to stir in my life is essential- they thrive for it and at many times, crave and pray that it comes in whirl wind form so that maybe I can just vanish from the face of the earth. For such people everything I do is wrong and everything I write negatively is about them—although rest assure, I am saying with all my heart that whatever I write is not concentrated solely on one group of people but to many and that being that we are in a free country, I will not apologize for being this way.

For those who read my blog entries and view my pages for the first two reasons, I extend my sincerest appreciation and gratitude for being truly concerned and for trusting my judgment and wisdom on style. 

For those who do read this with the sole intention to scrutinize me, post horrible comments on how I am, send below the belt tweets from bogus accounts  for the world to see  and berate me, all I can say is this: turn off your monitor, block my page from your browser, firewall me, shut down your computer and never visit my site again. I make my blog public because I want to hear different things from different people but if the things I hear are hurtful and detrimental to both my and my family’s sake, I need to put a stop to it and I am telling you to stop. My life is not a spectator sport you can watch and neither are my day to day challenges.

The Truth About Diamonds

I am too ADD to keep up with the latest gossip, making me the friend you can spill every sordid detail to about your problems and I will not tell a single soul, not because I put myself in a pedestal and only care about my own turmoils but because I was raised in such a way that I believe that some things said should remain sacred. Rumors would only bother me if I thought for a second that people take rumors and gossip seriously.  

I don’t have any secrets left to tell. One thing I’ve learned since I started this blog is how much I treasure my family and the real friends who have been with me through all my ups and downs--- they are more valuable than any diamond or gem in the world.

There are only a few people left in my life whom I trust implicitly and who totally trust me back. I used to think that was bad until I realized the truth: true friends are like diamonds--- bright, beautiful, and valuable and always in style. You only need a few diamonds- including the one for the finger. Having fun with these diamonds is the least destructive drug. Even though I witnessed all the drama I have been exposed to since my life virtually became a live feed, I am currently experiencing how establishing relationships with people is like a giant magnifying glass--- and that only a perfect diamond looks good THAT close up. Is anyone perfect? No. As real people, we are flawed. And even if you adore me and think of me as one of the greatest girls you’ll ever know, my diamond is rough. I am no exception.

I guess that’s the thing about diamonds, they’re the most valuable things in the world, but what really makes them priceless is the people that give them to you. They may signify wealth, but they can actually mean so much more like commitment, family, and love. And there’s nothing like the perfect diamond to remind you that you’ll never be perfect. I will never be perfect… the truth is all I can do is try.”


PS: Thank you for all the prayers, I went through surgery last Monday and I am currently still on the process of recovering in my hospital aka hotel room suite in the best hospital in the world--- St. Luke's Global. I love the staff, service and team of specialists attending to me. To all those who sent me well wishes, and prayers, I cannot express how grateful I am to all of you!

xx, JL

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