A Real Life Fairy Tale

I see the world through different eyes
I look at you by my side
No matter where, you're always there
Will I ever see what you could see in me?
I do, I just believe that we will always be and dream, Well I will never be the same and when they see
that you and I were meant to be they'll just believe why we are together

 You are my light, you are my star
You are my sunshine and my dark
You are the everything I dreamed about
You are the guy who stole my heart
I am the girl you're always fighting for
We have a love people dream about
A Real Life Fairytale

Gown by: Kristel Yulo

I believe you can have whatever you really want in this life, in one form or another, sooner or later. All you have to do is take care of your health and be lucky enough to live for a while. But you can't have it all at once and you can't have it forever. No life has the room for everything in it, not on the same day.

 I never thought that living your life as it is would cause such frenzy and fascination from so much people. For quite a time I thought that voicing out my opinions and sharing tidbits of my ever so chaotic life to people in this page would be a good thing since 1) I would learn a lot from other people as well and 2) People would likewise learn from me. And what a ride it has been. The saying goes, "You want nothing when you are trying to forget the something that is everything."

Pain is such an unusual thing. Beauty can come out of pain, death, realization, truth, malice, regret, anger, love, sins. So many emotions and actions can stem from emotional pain. I am unable to hate any emotion that I experience because each emotion brings new insight into who I am and who I am to become. I do though, in fact hate the cause of such an emotion, it is not a person, place, or thing. It is merely a situation no one can control. I am unable to foresee others' reactions of me as they are unable to foresee mine. There is no one to blame in a predicament such as this...It is merely life. A mixture of emotions that we are all in-titled and condemned to. Hopefully this hollowness will pass in time.

Maybe everything does happen for a reason maybe there is still hope. Although, feelings of hope appear only to bring more pain. Would it be wiser to- lose hope and live through the discernment, that there is never a happy ending or shall one keep hope in a box at the bottom of ones heart and search for a new 'happily ever after' constantly peering in the box for inspiration and knowledge for the future. Is hope necessary to move on, or does that hope limit you from doing so?

 "You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away." 

xx, JL